upside down @ 9:41 PM;


watching OC and msn-ing with jas.. trying to keep my mind off things..

looking back at the past year and things really changed huh? read tru my past posts.. and everything that happened seems so far that i can barely remember.. gues it was kind of a busy year..



31.o1.o8
cried in the car..because i was overjoyed, after all the waiting and you finally had some kind of reaction?! be it because of a book, a song, or just me.. it doesn't really matter.. but the fact that we're together.. felt you were more than anything i deserved.. i tot we fit.. better than most people in the world..but when everytime when your words dragged me down and filled me with self-doubt.. i wondered if i was good enough for you.. and friends always cheered me up.. telling me i'm better than i think... same routine the whole time... your words, my tears.. my actions, your tears.. but it all seemed fine.. months, half year.. and we tot we were stable.. 6 months!beat that! den it all happened so fast... i accused you, you stopped trusting me... but no one said anything.. and i tot we were okay... but you acted so well.. that i never knew.. how hard it must have been for you to act like you loved me whne you din... and den the day came.. when you spilled out everything, and my world came crashing down...

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mama's damn strong..din cry a single tear..as for the rest of us..who could bear to see her like this?she herself was crying luhs..i bet its like fucking pain..but wad can we do?at least she made it to see 5th aunt this morning..should still be doing well now..i hope she'll get tru all this shit..i thank god for helping her pull tru last night =))
and nainai was gone.. cant help but miss her..
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reached a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
It feels like you gone too soon

31.o1.o9
cried in my dad's lorry.. mama and da korkor both saw but thank god they din ask anything.. not even after we got home.. so :D
felt alot of emotions just now and now everything's just blank.. i guess its for the better.. saves everyone the emo-ness huh? and posting here will just invite more questions.. some i dun have answers for.. and some i'm trying to hide from.. wadever it is.. i dun really know.. but i'm really trying.. its not an easy day.. ya, i know i said i moved on.. but i guess if you guys really wanna force something out of me.. i would say i dun know.. but this doesn't mean i haven got over it.. it just means that i cant just act like its and ordinary day and just do wad i do everyday.. i hope you guys can understand and cut me some slack.. give me a break.. all these stuff about putting everything behind isn't as easy as it seems ya? so i would appreciate if you guys can help me and not blame me or anything because i cant get over it.. its not that i dun want to.. its a long shot and i'm trying my best :)
the song is SUPER NICE.. in sync with wad i'm feeling now..

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall.
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses and all the king's men
Couldn't put Humpty together again.

upside down @ 11:20 PM;


da korkor's BACK FROM TAIWAN!!! Wee!~
he bought back a bag(for papa), a purse(for mama), a shirt(for er korkor), and the most expensive one of all:a handphone pouch FOR ME! :D
it is like hand-made, hence the expensive price.. it is SUPER CUTE! i probably wun use it cos i'm afraid to dirty it.. its really damn sweet and cute! if i could get LG ice-cream to match it, IT WOULD BE LIKE A MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN! :D
he bought grey goose for er korkor also.. i'm so gonna get a sip from him!
he bought himself 2 shirts, a pair of DAMN COOL Vans shoes, and he got a picture of him and his gf climbing 101! its so nice la! and the food he ate there is F-A-B! can you imagine yu chi fuo tiao qiang as an APPETIZER?!

di go to sch today luhs.. felt damn sick in the morning la.. swallow saliva is like really piercing pain la.. so went back to sleep lorr.. den afternoon felt better le, went to see doc.. after that melissa msg-ed me say going play mahjong cos tmr no time.. so took 159 and ling,jas,mel and minyu came up the bus when it reach the sch there de bus-stop.. went to mel's house and play play play... in the end won 30cents.. den they still wanted to play.. was like 6/7 le.. den the bus-stop is quite far, i also dunno how to walk.. so wait for them play finish le.. den mama called and scold me :( so pia cab home lorr.. realise is like damn near fernvale la! if i went to compass and den back again.. will take like SO much longer la... it cost me $5.40, cos got extra charge of like $1 plus? -.-

physics test on Monday and i dun even have my textbook.. chem test on tues and i barely understands wad she says every lesson.. science feels so crap luhs... -.-

gonna go sleep la.. cannot take it le.. the drowsiness is taking its effect.. zZzZz...

upside down @ 9:29 PM;


i am S-I-C-K. argh.. MDM lim says if i go for camp.i'll probably die. so i should either get well before camp, or just not go at all.. i prefer the first one though :)

school's no fun.. quite boring actually... everyday also got homework and i just cant get it done la.. either i'm too lazy to do it, or i just dunno how to do it.. kinda irritating la..
drama is all about SYF now.. we're really trying to do everything nicely now.. but so far we're still at the same scene over and over again.. but we're trying to perfect it, so ya :) saw what we'll be wearing today.. kinda disappointed in mine but i do have two roles,plus i dun really have the time to change off-stage so i guess its good enough :) how many people in the world can actually get to be KING MINOS ya?! haha!

feeling damn xinku now la! crap sia! dun feel like going school tmr.. confirm will curse the fan like siao de... argh.. i hate getting sick...
the best thing i can do now is go sun-bathing or soemthing.. it feels damn good to just let the hot sun just splash on my body la! whole body warm warm de... I LOVE THE SUN && WARM WATER!

upside down @ 10:54 PM;


zzz.. i really nothing to say le. did i say the word happy yesterday? which part of my post about you hinted to you that i was even happy? please la hor.. i was just trying to say that all those detention you told me you would be getting.. in the end also dun have wad.. vent your anger can. go ahead for all i care la.. but need use the word "fuck"? it was just a worksheet la.. need so angry ma? did i say it was your fault that you blamed me? please stop putting words into my mouth.. i din say you were unreasonable cos you gave me more time or any of that.. i say you are unreasonable cos there is NO NEED to scold a person until lidat just becos he/she lost your worksheet.. like i said, i did not feed your worksheet to the dogs or any of that crap.. it was not on purpose.. do you think i wanna owe you anything? yes. i said you are childish and i'm never gonna take that back.. i think there is absolutely no need to spew vulgarities on someone that has lost your worksheet...

i'm seriously totally bo mood now.. dun even have the new year cheer in me.. this year's start was no something i wanted.. but i wanna make the best out of wad i have now.. like sandy said.. some people just come and go and there is just these few that i really wanna hold on Jasmine,Ling,Mel,RuiXi,Joey,JoJo,Alicia,Yiyee, Sandy,Minyu,Kat,Meishi,Cheryl and my family which includes my dearest cousin.den there's Tengda,Kaibin,Chinbee,Dorisa,Esther,Jiayi,Benedict,Jason, Gilbert,Darren,Yvonne and all those in drama luhs, and and many others...
i really miss 2E alot.. and listening to my friends talk about their sec3 class makes me a little jealous.. their classes seems so fun and i just feel that 3a is soooo... ... 3a.. i really want 3a to be more like the other classes..noisy,fun and enthu and there is just this atmosphere that says "I LOVE MY CLASS"..i hope one day 3a will be like that too :)

have to finish my work and go sleep le.. or else tmr late again -..- detention is B-O-R-I-N-G.

fuck-ed up.

upside down @ 9:27 PM;


lol.. nothing much happened at school today except for class deco? haha.. i think we did pretty well ya?

ate long john's.. super long din eat le.. YUM YUM!~ went singtel look around for phones? i wan a touch screen one! but jas says i'll regret.. still haven decided luhs.. minyu say wan all buy ice-cream tgt.. but i'm still considering :)

geog test tmr.. gonna sleep early so that i can wake up earlier to study tmr :D i dun wanna fail geog luhs..
today's math test was okay... few questions i din understand so din complete.. lol.. but i think i secured a 20 at least? so ya.. i should pass luhs :)

sec 3 life is really different from sec 2.. last yer still can play all i wan.. but this year is seriously must study and pay attention in class le.. but i'm still kinda slack now.. copying homework and stuff cos i'm too lazy to do them.. i'm trying to work on that so ya..
i was afraid history would be boring but i've taken an interest on it.. all about WWI and stuff.. i think all that is more interesting than decicuous leaves or how tall the trees are.. so i guess i've made the right decision :D i really wanna work hard and get nice results this year.. so JIAYOU everyone ya?

gonna sleep le.. nights :D

confused.

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damn bo mood now can.. read baodong's blog.. seriously, do you need to write until lidat? you say until like i purposely feed your worksheet to the dog and den wan you to kana scolded by teacher? till now, still no detention wad.. need say until lidat anot? unreasonable worksheet loser? aren't you being unreasonable too? and its not like i lose everybody's worksheets right? fucking nto gonna turn back again? you think i want mehs? i think you're super childish now? just because i lost one of your wokrsheets and you scold until lidat? all you got was a scolding wad? say until wad detention, everyday stay until 7 at school? and i apologised right? wad do you wan? there's nothing more i can do right? will you stop all these nonsense?

upside down @ 10:32 PM;


i know, the songs sound gay. but if it was sang it a SUPER MAN voice, not nice le right? plus its SUPER COOL.. for those who watched "twilight" it sounds farmiliar cos its the song that was played when they were playing baseball.. SUPER NICE YA?!

i'm super pissed of today.. but i shan't say anything about it.. cos i'll start cursing and den i'll break my promise -.- but still! i really really wanna curse her and all.. but i'm gonna keep it to myself.. i SO WANNA TYPE IT ALL OUT.. this is SO testing my self-discipline! :(
but i got to say! i totally love her face on thursday! MUAHAHAHAHA! i should have looked longer la, but her face was too ugly.. my eyes were screaming and so was my brain.. din wanna remember something so ugly. LOL! i'm ot gonna curse her, but my actions will still be full of "I TOTALLY HATE YOU!" :D

breakfast-ed with mama today.. she was having her break time so i went down to eat with her.. den peii-ed jas and watch her and her friends lunch-ed. mshe saud she diao-ed her and was fu*king happy :) i'm happy fro her too.. just sad i couldn't do it myself... den ling joined us and we mrt-ed to hougang.. there's nothing to shop there la.. but ling wanted to go.. so we went.. ended up she never buy anything.. it was me who spent money there.. bought black nail polish and nail glue.. den bus-ed to aunt's house.. took 27 den ling joined me cos she could stop at her house there.. listened to ipod,read and msg-ed all the way. woots, i'm so good at multi-tasking :D
reached and started tuan yuan fan...no wanton luhs! :( saded.. and people finished the hawaiian pizza before i managed to take a piece of it.. was kinda pissed but ya, i cant possibly ask them to vomit out for me right? ate a part of the yu sheng and ya.. daddy drove us home..

so here i am.. blogging.. :)

learnt a new quote from yeehang " 此地无银，三百两。" super fun to use :D

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i dunno wad to say luhs.. tot i could tell you stuff.. and i really din expect that.. i knew you were trying to help but some things just wun work out right.. the best you can do is just leave it there and not touch it.. i'm trying so hard to not let the tears fall cos i dun wanna be like her.. crying cos of the littlest things.. please dun make it any harder for me.. but tonight wasn't your fault so dun blame yourself ya? i'm too vulnerable for my own good :)
back to milk-drinking nights.. just so i can catch my plane to lala land.

upside down @ 9:54 PM;


today passed rather quickly...

apart from lessons.. me,ling, tengda and kaibin were like sharing jokes. super funny la! wad the hell.. some will make you laugh even when the person only say halfway. throw the bangladash down the plane. Lmaos la!

gonna skip all the way till eldds.. was late cos we had extra class den went to lunch-ed.. have not gossip-ed THAT mush for a long time.. SUPER FUN! you cant have me,sandy,minyu and kat in the same place. with an addition of yanling and jasmine! you spell G-O-S-S-I-P! :D

went too drama after that.. got script and all those information. OH MY GOSH! i'm telling you.. its gonna be damn spectacular! if we do it well, i dun see a reason why we cant get gold-with-honours :D love the script! i hope i get a good speaking role :)

miss seniors.. honestly, its now the second closest thing to me in school le..

我們都是超級大笨豬 is the first closest. i love them so much, we'll never be apart, ya?

2E was in second place.. but now we're not tgt anymore..i miss you guys darn much :( now that i dun haf you guys anymore.. drama takes over.. and i really enjoy it.. looking forward to it every tuesday and thursday :) with minyu and kat :D best buddies.. and lets not forget our gossip crew! :D

after drama, peii-ed minyu to wait for jiayi.. played abit of bball too.. the guys were super funny! had SO much fun.. had to run around but keep my legs closed when i start blocking jason (i think).. cos he kept trying to throw the bball between my legs or around me den run and get it again.. annoying la.. but was super fun.. den benedict( i dunno the exact spelling, sorry if i spell wrong) say i "mai rou de" argh! cos i got quite close to jason when blocking him? wadever la.. kinda offended, but i know he was joking la :) all in all! i had fun! maybe i'll play again next time after drama :)

there's homework every other day.. i know i'm suppose to complete them, sec 3 le.. cannot slack le.. but i'm just too lazy to :( argh.. got to do something about my lazziness :(

bye guys! gonna try to discipline myself and do my work. try :)

I'm a lot to handle, you don't know trouble, I'm a hell of a scandal, me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen, I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!

upside down @ 9:58 PM;


blah blah.. everything is same old same old.. and I'm lazy to type it all out anyway.. so ya..

depressed? i dunno wad this feeling is anyway.. trying to wriggle myself out of everything.. its like trying to force open a door when there isn't any.. i really dunno wad to do... I'm really tired of everything..
the 8 months felt so stable.. all those days when i was still holding on.. sandy made a point.. could i really get over it.. or was i just leaving it there.. waiting for some random guy to clean it up for me.. baby couldn't... but maybe the next one that comes along can.. or maybe, someday, I'll have to clean it up myself.. i can forgive all that happened, but a part of me just cant forget it.. if this was how it was suppose to end up den so be it..
but now,I'm living the best life now.. great friends and my family.. all encouraging me and stuff.. so ya, I'm pretty happy with how it turned out.. I'm having enough right now that i dun feel the need for more :) i hope you will too.. i know letting go is so much harder than it sounds.. I've been tru it.. and if i can, i think you can too :) I'll be here for you ya? but for now, maybe it will be easier for you if we meet up less ya? but you know yourself best? so if there's anything you need me to do, I'll try me best luh :) JIAYOU JIAYOU. I'm sure you can do it :)

tired.. i'm gonna sleep le.. nights peeps! i love you guys :)

upside down @ 12:02 PM;


thanks for all those love taggs! i love you guys loads too!

err... stop saying all those touch touch things le la.. just let it be ya? who wan touch who just touch la! HUGGS peeps! dowan touch den dun touch la. :) dun quarrel over touching things -_- ya?

and to my dear brother! just read and dun comment la. wan read let you read dun come ask me this ask me that can? i let you read wad happens in my life adn i think thats good enuf? dun come ask too much la. or else i change blog url le hor! love ya!

i'll reply tags here.. the tagboard is completely out of control -_-

seph: ya! thanks.. but i like this one better :)

rose: my class is really boring! not united de.. SUPER SUPER MISS 2E la! everyone was like SO together.. now like.. errr...

Lizhen: Thanks! i will!

Simhwee: thanks:) i love you too!

the rest dunno wad to reply you guys la.. stop quarrelling -_-

Stuck on a roller coaster.Can't get off this ride.

upside down @ 8:20 PM;


YAY! blogging again :) i hope i can blog E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y~

today school was okay.. another super quick day!

people are being irritating again.. i dun mean they did it on purpose.. their voices just sucks happiness out of you.. but still, trying to bear it :)
after school rushed straight to AMK.. tot i was late le cos suppose to meet at 2.3o.. AND YOU WERE LATE-ER! rahh! but still.. din watch ponyo cos den my dear sis will say i suck so much, so decided on bedtime stories.. sort of a waste of money la! so irritating.. not very nice de lorr! so dun watch la! i hope i'll be able to watch PONYO! PONYO~ PONYO!~
as for red cliff, i wanna watch 上 first before watching 下.. but seems impossible? zzz..
back to subject.. bought popcorn and drinks, den went in le.. watch watch watch *boring* but quite funny la.. den end le we left.. seriously, i barely drank anything la.. the whole cup(?) was still FULL! rahhs.. next time dun buy coke le, wasted you money! :(
after that ate mos burger.. i din eat la! but you also barely finish it lorr! waste money la you! :(
after that den bus-ed home le! YAY!

err... reached home.. eat.. watched tele.. went down with yuyu.. came up.. bathed and here i am blogging! lol!
going down again to help bro book bbq pit! he's friend's birthday so their having bbq at fernvale!

wah! so many people wanna book for friday? watch this watch that.. wad the occasion huh? :)

BTICH! who was the one that said she din wan friends to interfere?! den now wad are they doing here?! tell me again you dun deserve this?! please la hor! dun fake one lehs! talk so much yesterday! and joey's right! you ain't sincere AT ALL! stop acting lehs! aren't you tired at all? or do you just want their attention? Ray's? i really dun get you. wad do you wan? first tell me you're sorry.. den tell me you dowan friends to interfere? and now they come my blog for wad fuck? now, i dun even feel sorry for you that my friends scolded you! you deserve it all la! and dun talk about you getting hurt la hor! i dun give a damn! dun be two-faced la hor!

upside down @ 7:56 PM;


somehow, the mood still stays :) and it feels real GREAT! and it helps too, to know that there are people you love that assures you that you did the right thing.but korkor says it will be better if i talk to mummy and tell her the whole story myself.. i'm waiting for the chance to, so ya.. but the look my korkor had on his face scared me a little, but he gave my mum a head start so i hope she's ready for wad i'm going to tell her :)

nothing much happened today also.. hmm.. last two periods my mind wandered off.. like out of s sudden my mind shifted.. den i blur blur de, wan sleep wan sleep le.. den keep waking myself up. lol..
eldds auditions were a total mess.. most of the sec ones were really disappointing.. we even gave them charaters if they could not think of any.. and they were like ... ... but one or two were really good! but knowing that the seniors are leaving soon.. can't help but wonder wad we're gonna do without them :( argh.
i really love the jacket though. SUPER NICE, and super comfortable la! woots! I ♥ DRAMA, cos life's like one.

WOAH. long night huh? my tagboard is officially no longer for me and my blog's purpose -_- but ya.. i'm really happy with my friends by my side ALL THE WAY! i love you guys damn much la.. but still.. the words are a little "WOAH" huh? but thankyou guys so much :)

hmmm.. i get so easily hot tempered these days.. wonder why.. dun irritate me if you dun wan to kana scold la.

To simhwee: sounds wierd but ya.. thanks for telling your mum about it.. for the past months i was wondering how to break it to my family. and thanks to you, i'm having a much easier time doing it. at least i dun haf to act in front of them anymore.. thanks alot ya.. and i may say this less often, but i still love you babe :)

we will never be like the past again, when we belonged to no one but the other.

upside down @ 12:35 AM;


err.. sihui, did i say i was talking about you? which part of the word "bitch" links with you? unless you think you did something wrong, why should the word apply to you? or is it cos you think you are one? if it is, i've got nothing to say :) just a word "bitch" could have SUCH a reaction from you. wow.
and for passer-by, obviously you know her.. so ya. i dun think i need to say more :)
to sihui, acting noble and using people as tools should be your area of expertise, not mine :)
and it is so funy that you only told half the story. wad about the part where you accused me of spreading gossips around 2e 'o8? did you accidentally miss out that part? or was it just because you din want to say anything about it when it was actually your fault. or any other things that you feel would be best if others dun know about it?

spilled everything out.. family just haf some way to get to you dun they? haha. anyway, now i feel so officially FREE! dunno why there is just something that kept me holding on back den and now its gone! maybe cos it was the fact that i was afraid they would be disappointed or wadever.. turns out they were worried for me instead :) yay!

hmm.. today's school was okay.. err.. nothing much happened la.. so ya, and its getting late and i still have hw! so i'll blog again next time when i can :)

i should not be the one to pay for your mistakes.

upside down @ 9:10 PM;


-FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL-

seriously, i'm kinda disappointed. i was SUPER excited for it. and it turned out like this. there were really nice people. Sat with YanLing, with dorisa and chinbee in front of us, and tengda with kaibin behind. tengda seems kinda quiet? shy ba.. and kaibin is SUEPR lame. lol! psyco psychologist! and of all seats, the bitch had to choose to sit so close behind me. ugh! lots of hates :)

lessons passed by rather quick.. most teachers were okay.. i hope i can really do well =]
the only thing that i really need to get used to is the recess time! crap la, the period before recess and i'm super hungry le :(

after school ate lunch with meii and her friends. they were super crazy la! super funny.
den went to take back my things from him and ya..
went back to look for meii and her friends at skcc. den need to go ling's house to take files cos teacher needs it. played at her house till 5 plus.
korkor call me go buy dinner with him and go home tgt. went compass buy dinner and den went to opposite buy ramli's burger and other things den lrt-ed home :)

ate, bathed and i'm blogging now :)

i dunno wad to say. it just hurts.

Her name:ZHIYU ; YU TEH
♥like a baby,i can also be a tyrant♥
She's FIFteen.
Born on 8th April 1994.Rmb the date peeps.
There's more to her than she's willing to tell.















Something's wrong with the song. Will get the right version soon :)
AL LEAST A B4 FOR ALL SUBJECTS.

Go Escape!
LOTS OF KAH-CHINGS!
New Bag(if possible,haversack)PINK
New Handphone. i hope i can change it to OMNIA though :(
MORE CLOTHES!

Movie:
The Final Destination(5)
Alvin and The Chipmunks TWO
Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince
X-men Origins - Wolverine
first movie with you

Knowing :D
Night at The Museum 2
Angels and Demons
The Ugly Truth
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